It led me here……
(Stick with me here and please come back!)
Which led me to Pinterest to start following them on there!
Then that led me to find this post here….. take a moment to read it, it will help to follow mine.
This post by Jeanette @ FenceRow to FenceRow felt like it was speaking to me! That God had put the words in Jeanette’s mind and helped her type them to the world wide web JUST FOR ME to read!
This is exactly how I have been thinking and feeling for awhile now. Only in my mind, it’s not so clear. It’s pretty jumbled.
Here…. take a glance into the thoughts of my mind for a moment. The back & forth flow of it all!
Why can’t I feel comfortable writing my faith story here and not worry? When I write it, I feel it’s what I am to do, then I allow fear-filled thoughts to enter.
Why can’t I send back that volunteer form, and take a few hours of time that I know will replenish my soul and give to others? Fear…just plain fear.
Why can’t I let go of a particular stress, that is sucking the life out of me and just accept the way things are? Or take a risk and find a solution? Yep, you guessed it. Fear, and I’m afraid of making a mistake!
I don’t do chaos well or last minute changes in my schedule. They bring out the “monster” that usually lies sleeping within me.
That trust in God part of my faith, I struggle with it as you can tell. I continue to want to control and take back what I have “given over to Him”.
Maybe God sent me on that blog reading journey to reach Jeanettes’s post so I wouldn’t feel so alone, so I would know that reading other people’s faith journeys and struggles are helpful, and that the other two things going on in my dangerous mind. Well they too will come to pass and I can have faith that He will be with me always.
He was there before I was born, He was there when I was hurt as a child, He was there in all my joys and all my heartaches of this life.
I shall take on my “tasks” one at a time, and conquer my fears. The form is being sent back today and whatever happens ————- well happens! I’m not taking that one back!
For I, the hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, your God,
“Fear not, I am the one who helps you.” Isaiah 41:13
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Visual Reminder for Myself! (Links to them are original below image)